thanks and good bye~!

freaking dumb bastard deaf brother! freak off! don't freaking think that you're our big brother then you can say whatever you want to us. we're not your slaves please.
mind what you're saying idiot! personal hygiene? you think i don't know what's that?! freak off! you this disgusting idiot! you yourself are disgusting so you don't have the right to say me or han. and i'm perfectly fine with my personal hygiene so please mind about yours! just shut up and get into your room and smoke for the rest of your life! and please i don't wish to be a second-hand smoker! if i die because of lung cancer, i'll deal with you! freako! bastards! get lost! go smoke till you're satisfied with your life la! what you promised daddy, you did not even fulfilled it! so you got no rights to say anything about me and han. just simply get lost la!
because of this stupid quarell i got freaking no mood to study! thanks ar! idiot!
all you know is to play computer games! what else?! freaking hate computer games! what have you done to this family?! this is what a brother should do? FISH you man! ARGHHH!!
i'm damn pissed off la!
AIYA WHATEVER LA!!! PLEASE JUST GO SMOKE ALL YOU WANT. TO ALL SMOKERS I SIMPLY HATE IT! but no offence. sorry guys if i've offended any one..hai.
why can't i have a brother which potray a good impression on everyone. which is everyone's ideal brother..hai.
to you i got no hopes at all. all i get is just disappointments for me and mummy. as well as daddy. hai
when will this stupid blogger be problem free? ARGHHHH pekcek la!
bye la....

last friday my bio practical lecturer brought us to one of the room to see the dead...
we only get to see the part which starts from the neck to the thigh.
so we manage to see the EXPOSED lungs, the liver, stomach, small intestine, large intestine and the bladder! hahaha cool uh
then there's other body organs in the other tray.
2 hearts which is abit gross and the lungs too. we all know that the lungs is like a sponge, plus to prevent decomposition they got to soak it in some sort of chemical. then our lecturer wanted to show us that it really does work like a sponge so he squeeze the lungs. LOL! chemical came out just like that and the whole class was like WTH! hahaha our lecturer is so gross! but its damn fun!
tmr got test on one module. so sian. got no mood to study at all.
somehow i think the dead is not that scary ba. hope so...
my attachment is nearing. so excited and scared. don't know what kind of patients will i get. hahaa its kinda cool man!
it will be a fun and good learning experience for me! for those who read my blog. i got posted to SGH. its far but its okay.
today in clinical lab lesson, we learn about the care after dead.
its so sad to see that cause it reminds me of daddy. :(
but nvm la..
blogger got problem again and again!! don't wish to blog liao.
got to go liao bye!
meeting my darling later! hehe <3

there's still something wrong with this blogger.. hai
i gave up already and not going back to the past any more.
i am freaking moving on! :D
so tired with everything now..
tired with sch stuffs, driving and market..
i feel like letting go of everything and seriously is everything..
don't feel like blogging already cause there's no colour neither can i change the fonts..
whatever ba. nights and bye~! C:

this stupid blogger got this stupid problem again
WTH
why can't everything be peaceful
why it can't be what i've expected?
no matter how much i explain, i just can't get over it
how much i say, i just can't explain anything or everything for myself
i just feel like crying
not because i miss whoever
is because this year is such a lousy year!
everything just happen so sudden and it sucks!
so what? i'm being honest with my life, so what i can't be with the one i love. it doesn't matter at all.
i don't give a damn shit!
promises are mean to be fulfill not broken..
but what i got is just broken promises.hate it!
i know deep down you hated me but i won't blame you or hate you. i'll just forget it. cause it doesn't matter to me any more
i wish to leave this place but i will sure miss the people i care for.
out of a sudden i just miss my daddy so much.
day and night.. no matter how late it is, my mind is all about my daddy.
my mind is so complicated!
exam is round the corner, oh and i got my B for my bio practical. LOL hope i can get better for my exams..
all i want is just to concentrate on my study, work and my driving. hope to get my licence asap.
then maybe i can drive out late in the night with my darling xinn and go some place quiet and talk? haha its cool uh..
i just want more freedom and more space for my own.
forget it then. i don't wish to talk anymore. this stupid blogger!
everything is not going my way.
please just let it go and just move on..
no point hesitating, because there's no point to do that.
so what if i still remember.
waiting is a suffering thing to do so i won't wait and i'll move on.
i've already moved on its just that occasionally i will still think of him but so what.
i won't bother to think about it cause i've already moved on..
you think you understand me well enough? i doubt that you really know me that well.
i'm not into anyone now and even for a period of time.
to make things clear enough for you?
love is a complicated issue
i don't wish to get involved so please..
stupid msn is giving me stupid problems too!
why is everything and everyone giving me problems!
family, school, studys and etc
be on my own then i can feel safe and i won't have any expectations from anyone
kor can you please be more mature and really think for others...
whatever..i don't care and i won't bother any more
i'm tired...
simply exhausted...

whatever la uh!

i cried.
can't stop sobbing..
hai.. i just miss *** *** ****
but please i wish i can stop it..