today went out with joyce to find vanessa at j8
we had our romantic lunch at ajisen hahah
after lunch, we went back to amk to sing K! LOL!
this is the 2nd time i'm going in this month...
but it was GREAT! hahaha
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promise my shifu that i'll have no emo post from now on
be it blog or facebook. hahaha
i think i can do it!
if not i'm gonna TREAT him!! hahahaha!
and..he can happily say, don't need jiayou laa, just treat me can le. LOL!?
what a shifu -.-
*if he sees this, i'll be in deep SHIT!*
hmm i think thats for today le ba.
nights peeps! with lots and lots of LOVE!

i miss you, what about you?

today went out for movie with rendy and ruisheng.
we watched 'gulliver travel'
hmm to be honest, its an okay movie only...
and ruisheng is good enough to tell me that i should thank him for his 2 pieces of nachos! LOL!
when 1 is already SOFT!
but still thanks to the both of them for the movie!
and ice cream too! was thinking of eating ice cream since last week hehe
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how i wish there's a time where i can really tell you how i feel and for you to tell me too..
but i wouldn't dare to say.
what if we can't even be friends how?
i will rather choose not to tell, at least we still can remain as friends. right?
i just miss you so much...hai... <3

things aren't going any better at all...
this isn't what i want for a family...
its becoming from bad to worse. and its seriously worst
what exactly is happening man!
hai... no one really understand except ourselves..
i really wish it can be better
i've cried, not just once
i badly in need of a shoulder to lean on and cry out...
when i'm done bottling up things, i'll explode!!!
my heart just felt so heavy, as though something is pressing hard on it
i don't even feel like coming back at all...
the feeling isn't what i used to feel back then
my mood is rather down this few days...
i need to go out and get some fresh air...
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

when you talk to me, i'm really kinda shock
didn't thought that you will still talk to me.. hahha
went chomp chomp for your dinner was good enough for me already..
this is the BEST Christmas pressie i've ever had... i'm serious
and this is what i wish for this morning when i saw the time @ 11.11am
it really came true or is it just pure luck? hmm...?
lastly, i still wish/want you to be my birthday pressie...
as a friend will be good enough
and i'm contented already...

i'll change my mind once i've met the right one in my life...
but now, i just wish to be who i wanna be.
i got no energy to commit in any r/s at all
even though this guy seems good.
but i still think that you're not the right one for me.
maybe i should say, now is not the right time for me to commit
be it anything at this point of time...

on the 17th dec, i attended my cousin's wedding...
her wedding was such a fabulous one which i will rmb it for life.
so so so romantic and fairytale like
when they had their speech, the newly wed thank their parents for bringing them up
hugging their parents with their greatest love...
it just knock me down, a hard one somemore...
suddenly i went deep into my thoughts
thinking, what will it be like if my dad was still around when i get married some day
i will surely thank him from deep down and give him the best and the tightest hugs i can give.
and not forgetting a kiss on his cheek to thank him and my mum for everything...
i also have this dream of having my dad to walk me down the aisle some day in the future. :(

if another chance was to be given to me, i'll make the best out of it...

am i sick in the mind or body?
why do i always wake up at about 4-5am in the morning and can't get back to sleep...
then at about 6-7 i fall deeply asleep... -.-
then now..my timing really gone case, feel so tired every now and then
stomach isn't feeling right too...WHATS WRONG MAN!!
ytd i got to know that my attachment is out, again.
21 march - 8 april 2011
next week is holiday already, why i just can't seem to enjoy every bit of it.

i cast you out of my life, doesn't mean i'll accept whoever wants to be in.

today i received a mail from the blood donation thingy..
hahaha i finally know whats my blood type! its B+ keke
i'm going for the next round of blood donation next year!
i felt so good after donating, is like i can help ppl that kind of feeling.
it just feel so great!
i'm wondering why am i feeling so hungry nowadays...
weird! LOL
and i feel so sleepy now le, shall endure in awhile then go sleep ^^
i'm counting down for my precious nephew to come out!! keke <3

side track:
I climb so high just to reach out for you but you just left me hanging there. when I'm drained, I'll just let go. and it will be over.

even the longest r/s can end at a blink of eyes... no matter how much you put in in the past, it's over.

and yes, this is what my friend encounter. i really feel sad but happy at the same time.
being sad is because that freaking guy cheated her feelings and his reasons are all BULLSHITSSS!!
happy because she finally can get out of his life. if she knows how to think, she will probably get out of it fully!
how can guys be so pathetic and scary to this extend of 2-timing...
all this kind of guys can really freak off and stay out of every single women's life!
retarded bastard....!
why can't the guys treat their girl better or the best that they can?
why can't they just be devoted and stop flirting around
having a charming face won't get you anywhere! charm won't last please!
only great personalities stays forever
wake up your idea and stop living in fantasy world
and no matter what, when its time to wake up. you gotta wake up.
instead of thinking about the fantasy world, why not just make use of that time and love the girl who is special to you.
can't you guys just WAKE UP!!
haiz...
pathetic guys...