"you're going to come across people in your life who say all the right words at all the right times. but in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. it's actions, not words, that matter."

today i've witnessed 2 normal vaginal delivery
its freaking COOL!
especially the pushing part is exciting! lol
when the baby comes out, its so touching when you see a new life has arrived
that kind of feelings cannot be describe in words...
at that point of time, i feel like getting married and have my own family hahaha!
its such a heart warming scene to see :)

what a long day for me... tired!
and guess what, dinner is my very first meal of the day for today
pathetic man! hahaha!
i wanna watch movie! i wanna watch The Town, cause it seems nice! or i should say, very nice?
i just wanna go out, any where will do. a day off is good enough...
i'm beat!!
time to bathe and rest already!
bye~!

today i bathe a baby and its a baby girl haha!
when cleaning her up, she pass motion and urine after i remove the diapers -.-
the urine was like shooting towards me hahah and luckily never hit me.
after wiping her clean enough, i carried her to the basin and bathe her..
she's just so adorable!
some more she's just 2days old ^0^

through the things i see, so thats the reason for your leave?
now i finally get it...
hahaha how silly it is for me to dwell on it
get up~ get up~ and move on~!
i'm done with it!
i'm so tired...i'm off to bed after i bathe.. nights!

gastric pain is a killer to me...
pain pain go away will you? :(
my eyes got so pain and uncomfortable due to the haze...
its been like this for few days already and its irritating!

Quote: 'but for people who really loves you, please do not do that...'
for you guys to say this is easy...don't treat your love ones as rubbish
but why do guys still wanna treat me this way? rubbish? i don't know...
is the reason(s) so painful for me that i shouldn't even know it?
or is just an excuse for you to leave?
its silly of me to keep thinking of it...
without a proper ending, a proper full-stop i just can't stop thinking about it.
what exactly turn everything around? what exactly is running through your mind?
what exactly happened? i'm totally clueless...
how silly of me.haha..

now then i realize i'm just someone you can thought of when you're all alone..
something like a substitute?
seriously i hate it...
how i wish i can break all sorts of contacts with you...
just don't treat me like i'm supposed to do that..
i'm not who i used to be, the weak and vulnerable one already.
lastly i don't really bother about anything, which includes you.

morning peeps!
I manage to wake up and be on time I guess.. lol
currently I'm waiting for my bus now.. just feel so sleepy
I'm also hungry now... :(
btw, saw your car pass by ytd but don't think is you ba...
cause you should be working?
hahah forget it...
the haze is really omg..
and it's gonna rain soon, just hope that it won't rain before I reach my work place.
no thunder please!! lol :)
I shall shut my eyes and rest awhile..
bye~!

having this mass cramps on my abdomen...
and pain on my feet due to ytd a clip file drop straight onto my feet...
stand also pain sit also pain!
why do I have so many problems?! lol
one of my patient was being transfer to the labour ward just now.
she's gonna deliver the baby soon!!! aww... so good!
my friends are all saying bye to me :(
gotta endure until 9pm! that's so late...
and I'm feeling sleepy now... help~! hahahha!
I shall make full use of my 30mins break and enjoy the sofa sit!

i'm sort of yewjun's private nurse now! hahaha
cause he got bike accident then he hurt himself. therefore, i help him do the dressing! hahaha
to all bikers, drive with care please!
have been sleeping damn damn late this few days...
i'm wondering how am i going to wake up on thursday morning -.-
when wednesday night 9pm then off work, thursday morning 5am need to wake up...
i need a magical alarm clock!
and i guess everytime before i go sleep, i shall bang my head on the wall first..
therefore i can go sleep straight away.
if not, my mind kept thinking about the past.
especially the days when we're on cloud nine...
roller blading and all was the most enjoyable days for me...
i hardly have enough sleep nowadays and a 10mins nap will really do wonders!
therefore, i'm off to BED!
night guys!
without me saying much, you know i love you...
love you guys!

when will you eventually tell me your reasons????

tmr is the start of my attachment, again.
its gonna be 2weeks at sgh and 2weeks at kkh
it will be a tiring day for me soon...
with insufficient sleep and long standing hours...
gotta ENDURE!
sleeping early tonight i guess. hope i won't be late tmr! hahaha :P
meeting tiantian tmr at amk mrt and jas at outram mrt.
hope my shift will be the same as them..

i miss you...

I'M SO HAPPY TODAY!!!
because i flew a kite today and we flew it damn damn HIGH!
went to marina barrage with darling and her sis
aww i'm just so in love with that Mr Kite! hahaha
the feeling of setting it free up in the sky is so good! simply GREAT!
i'm so gonna fly it again!
or i should say, maybe i just get 1 bigger kite and longer string...then go fly!
I LOVE FLYING KITE!!!!
ohh btw..that place is so so so romantic too.
if i got bf i'll go with him. ;P
i just love that place...
if the sky wasn't so cloudy, i would have gaze upon the stars...
it will be GREAT!!
i'm feeling hungry now... :(
shall endure...!
gambateh!

i believe that one day, i'll meet that 'someone'
because by believing, i'll be happier
those things i've listed in my post about what i wanna do during this holiday,
i think i can't fulfilled it ba...
due to darling's busy schedule and sis's packed project work..
they have no time for me :(
i can only stone at home.. poor me..
thinking and thinking...
thinking about, how am i going to celebrate my 20th birthday
thinking about, when will i get a life
thinking about, when will my life change *even though i think i've changed a lot*
thinking about, when will i get my very own car :P
lastly, thinking of when i'll be attached again. HAHAHA!
BUT, currently i still don't wish to be attached :)
i still wanna go out and make more new friends, make my social circle broader.
was planning not to celebrate my birthday next year...we'll see how ba
there's currently no one particular staying in my heart,
but there sure do have memories. lots and lots of memories which are very precious to me...
this memories are the one which made who i am now.
be it character, personalities or whatsoever..
every past of mine, are precious because its a learning journey for me
be it hard, painful, happy, sad, or joyful
i sincerely thank everyone who have/had appear in my life
making me sad or happy, it doesn't matter. its the past isn't it?
humans tend to look back into the past and feel sad and regretted
but for me, no!
i believe its fated and i hate to use regret this word in my life.
therefore, what i've done i won't regret.
last but not least, i still wanna thank those who once hurt me, love me, hate me, loathe me and rejected me.
have an early night peeps...

all of a sudden, i feel that i'm being used again, like as though only when ppl need me then they'll call or find me...
don't treat me as though i'm dumb...
had rocher dao huay last night and its NICE!
and because i eat it so slowly, the ants come and snatch my dao huay too! damn it!
so bored so bored so bored...
now i'm craving for ice kachiang!
aww..my fore arm got so ache after playing badminton with shuangjie ytd.
but, 'VITAS' the aching lotion/gel helped me a lot! wahaha!
i'm so bored...who is willing to bring me out~
lol!
shall see...

if you love her/him, let them go. you might not know, there might be someone better waiting for you..

today wainjiejie went for checkup, and there's a possibility that baby might come out early..:(
so khaw baby! must jiayou! stay healthy in mummy's womb!
we're more than happy to welcome you to the world and most importantly our KhawFamily.
love you 的姑姑. ^0^

the percentage of missing you is way off the limit today...
I can't help it but 'sent'

to my dearest khaw korkor,
happy birthday!!
you're officially 28! LOL
wish you all the best and be the best daddy and best husband!
爱你的姐姐!
hehe

things i wanna do for this 2weeks (if possible)
-watch sunset or sun rise
-fly kite
-roller blade
-play indoor badminton
-have a cold rock ice cream
-kbox
-gaze upon the stars
-have rocher tao huay
-chill out with friends too
and many many more if i can..

对你的爱，我只能默默的放在心里。藏起来是最好的决定。
对你，对我都好。