depressed...

the smell of the rain makes me think of many things in the past
in the midst of studying, i'm here blogging. lol
many many things happen just right in the beginning of the year.
be it happy/sad
what are the reasons for all the quarrels, breakups and getting into a r/s?
there's only 1 thing, TRUST
because your trust wavered, thats when you guys quarrel
because there's no trust, which leads to breakup
because there's trust, there's r/s.
and get to the main point, what makes your trust wavered?
simply, its just MISCOMMUNICATION. *unless someone did something wrong*
have you had the feelings of not to face it? as in the problems
because its just too complicated?
why ppl nowadays just don't know how to simplify things?
is a complicated angle better looking than others?
when things can be straight to the point, why is there a must to beat about the bush?

r/s is like having a bowl of rice
when its pipping hot, it taste wonderful
but once it turns cold. you despised it.
don't you know that, rice can be nice even when its cold?
a good example will be SUSHI
doesn't mean that when a r/s turns cold, you discard or despised it.
there's ways to spice up a r/s, be it anyway that is possible
add ingredients into that bowl of cold rice and turn it into a plate of sushi
it will be tasty too.
all kinds of r/s sure will work out, it just depends on how much effort and time you put in.
and how much time you spent just to spice up every bit in your life.
believe that its fate which brings the both of you together or apart
there will be reasons for this significant fate

okay! gotta start mugging already!

no one will understand what i really went through...
can this be solved?
can it be back to where it used to be?
every now and then, when i thought of it. it just made me tear...
i'm so afraid i might collapse or turned into someone whom i don't even know
its hard...very hard
i'm saving all my tears just to put a smile on my face
i'm doing my very best to put a smile
please don't take off that smiley mask of mine because i really need that.
just tell me, i'm doing great with that smile will do.
just tell me, everything will be okay.
just tell me, you will be there for me.
thats all i need...
no more heart wrenching thingy coming. i really need a break, a long one instead..
i need to rest my heart, mind and as well as my soul.
they are all exhausted to the maximum.