a picture says a thousand words...

that reply struck me right in my face
never once that thought was going through your mind, never?
how silly am i to have that thought running through my mind since that day
how silly...
to you, i think i'm just a normal library card which whether you bring it along with you or not. it doesn't matter. cause its just a useless card with no usage...
this is how reality show me how cruel it is in life

i was alright when i have things to occupy my mind
when i'm alone, i can't help but to keep thinking of it
rachel asked me, how did i overcome it so fast.
my reason was, i didn't overcome it. i'm just suppressing it, till no ones can see through it...
it was harder than what you ppl can think of...
she also ask me how can i manage to sleep through my night, my answer was
i'm tired but i can't sleep. if i slept, i will be waking every now and then.
whats the different between got sleep and waking up every now and then...
its equally tired..
that 'waking up so many times in the night' is here...
i think my face really shows how shag am i now...
gotta do something about it man
i wanna be busy like a BEE!
so i will have no extra time to even have to think about it..
because when i have the chance to even think of it, i will miss you a lot...
more than what you think it is
and when that thought came through, i wonder. what about you? are you thinking of me too?
how much courage i have just to initiate, you will never know.
since your actions already proved what you really want and you just don't wanna say, maybe its better that i just said it out.
struggling to open my mouth
saying that was like killing myself.. it hurts, so badly
this was the FIRST time i cried like a mad woman, indeed a mad woman
i didn't expect that too, didn't expect its really so MUCH


imissyou, a lot. what about you?

how much longer can i endure this loneliness?