while talking to my friends, i asked them about their expectations towards their bf
they came up with things which may sound unreasonable, may sound hopeless and what about mine? haha

is my expectations too high for you even to touch it?
lowering my expectation to fit yours
i saw changes in you and time can prove everything
but how much longer am i supposed to wait?
wait till the cow comes home?
why is it that when i'm starting to see some changes, and its back to original again.
having to just contact each other for just 1-3hours per day or even lesser
what kind of r/s are we in?
every now and then when i thought of it, my heart felt so heavy
i know i want changes in the way you treat me and i know, its not an immediate effect.
i will wait, but how long can i wait? few weeks? few months? or years?

do you feel the same way i felt towards you?
it will be something i might know/not know at all

it was there and then, i really realized where do i really stand...
all along i only know i was important, but i was wrong to doubt my position in your heart.
now i finally realized, i wasn't just in a spot but everywhere..
it struck me of your importance in my life..
it was there and then, i know.
i know that you will be the one, but i won't expect much cause i might have disappointments in the end.
so...just follow the flow will do.

btw...what you said, it will always be a scar there. like what i did. so i'm willing to do my best to prove/ to gain it back i once had.
as for the words said, shall let the time heal...
i'm willing to walk down this road with you, as long as you're there with me.

i finally came to realize, all along you are very important to me.
deep down in my heart, you're already in it.
just that i don't dare to admit but now, who cares!
I'M PROUD TO SAY YOU'RE MY BF.

iloveyou my bf, yewjun <3

if you think by breaking all contacts from you, i'm enjoying it.

the fact is i don't...

i'm crying inside, its just that you don't even know.

the power of invisible tears...

where are you when i need you the most...

honest?

something amiss...

this matter is down and another matter is up

what are you hiding exactly?

some explanation?

my six sense are accurate at times so please, be honest to me.

problems after problems, i'm sick of it...

tell me what to do, will you?

tell me that you're worth it, will you?

tell me i made the right decision, will you?

just tell me and encourage me to hold on, will you?

i'm getting exhausted and drained day by day

some hugs from you can definitely ease everything

just got back from darling's house and my whole body is aching due to swimming..
was chatting with darling till this morning at about 2-3
and we just doze off immediately after the lights was switched off
its been so long that i last went to her house to stay, hehe feel so GOOD!
feeling tired again -.-


a little more time for me, will you?

maybe i should say...it was a total failure
it turn out weird in the sense, it wasn't really the one i want...
and awkwardness built in as well
so much of that appreciation, i guess this is it...

things unsaid, and i'm wondering what am i doing here...

stress building up each day, regardless anything

what am i?

and where do i stand?

some day i might just go crazy and eventually screw you ppl who make me mad.

i just got the feeling that i can't hold on any more...

signing off.......

i'm so looking forward for:
- sat, out to sallyjiejie & hd's house to see their baby! go out with darling!!
- sunday, out with bf (which i've been planning since..a week ago?)
so excited!! <3

yupp today marks the last day of my attachment and off to 1 week holiday lohh!!
i'm totally exhausted, like seriously..
i'm off to bed soon~
so night night peeps!
miss my bf and darling!! <3

subconsciously you have named your priorities from most to least

its so hard to put a smile when i'm crying inside

had dinner with bf and his dad.
we went over to bf's friend's dad shop..
okay..it's long. haha
yupp and we had chicken rice, veggie and pumpkin prawn.
it's been so long that I actually felt this way..
it's like....having a dinner outside with 'dad', of course I know he's my bf's dad. haha
it's the feeling, I just feel awesome!
I guess I'm just feeling super grumpy this few days due to my attachments.
5 days more to go~ jiayou!!
and I'm starting to miss you already..
nights peeps!
P.S: I'm missing my darling too!! <3

aww...how can i describe how exhausted am i now..
totally shag!!
today after attachment, went to meet darling at amk hub.
i was being fooled by her lor!
opened the COACH box and i found her shades and 2 packet of tissues -.-
hahahha i was like, HUH?! and this was my face--> o.O
ohh..and i LOVE it darling and sis! <3<3<3
gonna go sleep soon, cause i'm totally beat!
shall head to bed soon~!
and okay, i know i look really SHAG!
nights peeps!