why suddenly this overwhelming kind of feelings is all back at the same time??
shouldn't it be gone like in monthssss??
i'm happy with my life now, why so sudden you started talking to me again...
telling me things which turns out weird to me...
what are you hinting me about?
you're happy with your life, why must you interfere mine?
why must it be like now? when i'm partially getting rid of your trace...
can't you see i'm trying hard? can't you see i'm trying hard to be happy if i'm not?
how i wish you can just leave me alone. so that eventually i can totally forget about you and really move on with my life.
every step i take to go forward, i'll be taking 2 steps back again...
so how am i going to move forward?
i've successfully thrown that big big stone away from my heart...but yet you personally put it back again, some more a much heavier and bigger stone.
can anyone tell me how am i going to get rid of it?
its suffocating, painful, heavy and in the state of horror i guess.
my respiratory system can't even function well or can't even do just a simple breathing.
but i know eventually i will get rid of it myself, without any help.
when the day comes...i'll be proud of myself and be loved again! :D:D
thats all for today i guess.
NIGHTS!
i miss you, daddy...