had a sumptuous sushi buffet today and a cup of koi for the beverage ^^

what can i say when i'm feeling so not-sure of what i want now..
this thought kept running through my mind, why must a relationship start when you know its going to end?
is it because there's a possibility that the outcome might change? a happy ending?
why do ppl wanna get into a r/s when there's no happy ending, thats really suffering for either side.
yes, for once i've said that everyone got their chance to seize the opportunity to have their happiness but, what if that happiness is just a short period of it?
isn't it suffocating to end it?
everyone deserves a chance to get what they are yearning for.
everyone, indeed, deserves a chance to be loved and cared for.
planning to step into your partner's life, make sure you live the best out of it.
giving him/her your best because they deserved that.
having to step into their lives, make a mess and get out. thats call irresponsible!
my lecturer once told us, 'in marriage, male wants sex and female wants security.'and 'men are like light bulbs and women are like iron'
how true is that?there's thousands of questions running through my mind.
here, there and every where..
now that i know thats not the reason for everything so what exactly it is...
i'm better off not knowing anything in the first place..
at least i'm happy and not troubled.